"I go back to December all the time..."

Taylor Swift - Back to December

"kmk ska anne ari tk. mek x ska anne marek," said Eqkha yesterday.

i only laughed but well, i don't like the-day-before-me, too. the day before, she told me, "anne.... boh antap glak ktk tensen," and i replied with, "aie. smpey la jwak kmk x leh tensen..." haha. but it's true. what's so wrong with it, right? lol.

i guess it's because everything shows in my face; if i'm happy, then i'm like =D all the way and if i'm not, i would be like....well, i can't find the right emote for it. like i've to fight against everyone in the world, i suppose.

but then, i'm not the type to say "yeah, i'm good" when asked "are you okay?" while actually eating my heart out. or at least, i'm not that type anymore. i lie quite a lot, white and not, but that particular lie needs so much energy that i'm not planning to do it often. last Thurs was a total no-no situation i would produce such lie.

i miss the me back in December. it wasn't the best phase in my life; in an angle, it was the worst. but these days i miss those days very much. i miss the me living them. if Eqkha could see me at the time, she would like it for sure.

it was something like summer fling for me. it doesn't fit the normal days, it has to end anyhow. so yea, inertia hurts, you know?

and i go back to December all the time.

oh well. it's not that bad. i still got Nino - the reason why i stay in bed every time i got the chance to these days. =)