"May I live for you?"

KAT-TUN - YOU

if i may say something, lam dunia tk, bnda yg paling overrated is something we call 'love'.

and when i say love here, i mean humanly love la.

first of all, ku layan hot fm. aok. yala. lame. sori la, parents ku x pat dgr hitz ka lite ka bh. and bila lyn hot fm ya, byk la lagu melayu ya aku dgr otw gi cney2 (mun aku x pake ipod time ya). and around 90% lagu melayu is love songs.

sappy, ntah-pa-pa pun love song.

yg molah ku sa cam ng xda idea mena la org kta tk.

bkn nk mdh ku x layan love songs la. layan ng layan jwak. even kdg2 lyrics ya soh ku molah mka =___= . contoh paling sng, lagu atas ya la. time borink2 marek ku browse ipod, nemu lagu ya. bkak, dgr. "Oh, tk lagu cita Sappuri." and psya first2 line dh mksdnya kdk "Mun aku idup demi kau, boleh x oh?" rasa x mk tauk jak pa mksd the rest of the song. haha.

tapi ku dgr on repeat jwak lagu tk. sbab nya bez. haha. reminds me a lot ngan drama Sappuri ku nangga last year. lam HDD ku jak da 30 Japanese drama, Sappuri one of them. and dalam byk2 drama (should be over 50, ada yg ku nangga rah streaming sites jak), Sappuri is the only one yg message nya ng total love, xda bnda lain.

ingat gk ku time ku ngabis drama tk dlok. senyum-krek-tetak sorang2 dpn laptop smpey mak tyk "phl kau?". love overdose la ya. sweet glak kotan tek. cita tk xda soh ku nangis glak. tapi da cgek quote tk, from the main character, yg aku gk ingat smpey knek tk.

"Even to love, you have to have the qualification."

sbab bnda ya ng mena. haha.

another love story yg ku ska is Tatta Hitotsu no Koi; The One and Only Love. nangga, title dh gya. haha. pi cita tk byk touch bnda lain jwak, alongside the 'love' ya. nice. heroine yg remind me much of myself. cmya li aku mun ditakdirkan aku tk kaya. haha.

but the thing is. yala. the 17-year-old me kdg2 xpat paham how important such thing called 'love' tk ngan manusia seusia. cam nk, marek. aku TERbkak cgek msg lam sent item kwn ku sorang tk. TERbaca la msg good morning nya for grk nya terchenta tek. nyesal abis ku psya eh. ku ingat "morning syg!" ya kdk normal la jwak for a good morning msg; ada jwak duhal yg nganta msg setaraf honey ditambah 4 kati sugar gya.

honey + 4 kati sugar = sickeningly, killingly 'sweet'. ugh. pike jak dh rasa nk throw up. seriously.

dh2. x mk ingat. mena2 jwak ku muntah lak.

so, konklusinya - aku ng x phm ngan org yg pat nangga, pat jumpa org yg cdak ska basically stiap ari. sbab, yala. in two years, aku jmpa ngan org yg kira equivalent ngan "org yg aku ska" (sbab post ya kosong currently) ya twice jak bh. kira lucky mena pat jumpa YEARLY basis ya. taun tk pat ndak jumpa ka.

perhaps it's for the best la. distance makes heart grows fonder after all. in my case, distance makes heart keep fond.

because anne gets bored too easily that the prospect of getting tied to one person only is currently not comprehend-able for her.

p.s.

mun dh dri kol 6 pagi smpey 4 petang nangga muka ya, psya plg umah smbg gk text x stop2 smpey tdo psya ulang gk bnda yg sama esok ari - da cgek feeling yg maybe cdak x tauk wujud called 'rindu' ya x smpat nk nyelit pun eh. tdah mena.

p.s.s.

i miss you, mr doc.