"Next year, and the year after that too - I want to like you more than I do now. . ."

Flumpool - Kimi ni Todoke; reaching you

gah. lmk x update eh. haha. slain dri SPM. reason aku mls nk update is sbab malas nk tmbh post jadi 53. bez da no 52 bh. hehe.

nway. oleh sbab SPM pun dh abis, and henpon ku ya around kol 10 lak bruk berbunyi so ku update la blog tk dlok. hehe.

so. mlm tk. nk cita psl somethings that i can't get over with. bkn org la. bnda. eh. jap. da jwak la org. pi. well. mana2 la. haha. fyi, anne is someone yg sangat cepat borink ngan things/org. so apa2/sapa2 yg dpt soh aku stay suka ya ng saaaaaangat hebat la. haha. for e.g. la. mun aku ska cgek lagu tk, lagu ya ng stay in repeat. smpe la aku borink psya alu x ingat gk ngan lagu ya. haha. tapi ada certain things yg gne2 pun aku still ska jwak all along. kira mcm ever green la. haha.

to cut it short, here's the list. hoho.

1. Nishikido Ryo

haha. this one should come first. sbab gne2 pun aku ng sukaaaa nya. x kisah la drama nya borink nk mati ka or nya da scandal pa ka or org pdh perange nya jaik ka or nya smoking ka, upa nya dh cam org tua ka (kdk lam gmbr ya. haha.), aku still ska nya.

haha. aneh eh? haha. pi nya still da good qualities la. =)

2. Ada Apa Dengan Cinta

movie gk. haha. lmk jwak dh movie tk eh. 2002.

sometimes wonder jwak phl cita tk lekat ngan aku. nk mdh da kaitan ka pa ng xda.

ntah eh. cam bez. haha. gk pun laki cool kdak rangga ng my type la.

tho now aku tauk geram jwak ngan olaki x pnde klaka kdk ya. haha.

3. One Litre of Tears

cita tk, ngga episode ne pun, ng akan nangis. haha. maybe aku la yg congek li.

pi ng sdeh la. spa x nangis ng xda perasaan la. haha. gk pun cita tk kira nya big break for Ryo so

yala, ng special la. hehe.

4. Propose Daisakusen

cita berekot tk. haha. bkn cita hal athlete ka pa la.

just YamaPi ng byk berekot lam cita tk. haha. pi cita tk ng sweet la.

friendship ya. haha. cdak 4 sekawan stay dri high school smpe dh keja pa suma. ng bez.

harap dpt gya jwak la. hehe.

5. Kimi ni Todoke

love all of them - manga, anime, songs, live-action movie!

i think peyra was the one who introduced me to the anime. got hooked and followed along all 2 seasons. haha. bca nya pun manga shortly pas abis SPM rya. tho dh tauk jalan cita (sbab anime nya ng ekot closely the manga), pi still bez jwak. the manga is still on-going tho.

rasa nya ya jak la li. ari pun dh kol 10. henpon pun dh berbunyi. hehe. lak update gk~

p.s. to friends yang pegi PLKN, take care ye. ingat ktkorg gk mbak nama TUNAZ. =)

"Listen, boy; my first love story..."

Girls' Generation - Gee

it's the eve of Eid al-Adh, the takbir hasn't stopped and i want to tell my first love story.

haha. random.

so. time ya, darjah tiga. yeayea, tauk ku, gk kcik. haha. pi time ya ada la ska ngan sorang biak tk. haha. H bkn nama sebenar. haha. ada jwak krek ngan org-org lain time ya pi aku paling ska H tk la.

reason phl aku start notice nya aneh ckit la. haha. actually. sbab. tulisan rah bku latihan nya kck. haha. obviously bkn tulisan nya dkpn la. haha. and nama nya kck jwak. it's a nice name written in a nice writing. haha. and nya actually anak org kaya jwak. (kcik2 dh materialistik. hoho.) bpk engineer, mak architect. and nya pake songkok, so distinguished la jwak upa. haha. time ya x rami org pake songkok.

first2 ya ng mala klaie jak la. aku time ya class monitor yg sangat bossy and nya biak yg sangat malas nk bertugas. haha. pi ntah gne last2 jadi geng jwak. ngan cdak laki lain. cdak perasan dirik linkin park time ya. H tk joe hahn la tek. haha. start time ya la aku minat linkin park. still layan lagu cdak smpe knek tk.

zaman ya zaman motor dash (cmne ka ngeja bnda ya), zaman beyblade, zaman kad yu-gi-oh pa suma. suma yg si H tk main, aku mk ada jwak. haha. pa jak la. nya ada brik aku duak tiga igek kad yu-gi-oh, ng aku simpan nkah lam beg duit. even kad2 ya suma ng jaik pun. ng treasure abis aku. haha.

si H tk jwak org (biak) laki first i cried for. haha. aku bruk teringat cita tk actually. nya. haha. nya da tulis rah cgek bku tk; nya ska classmate mekorg sorang tk and best friend aku. hafizah ngan fazira. haha. ingat gk aku nama cdak. haha. wkt ya frust jwak la. haha. aigoo. pa jak la aku dlok.

masok darjah 4, dh rapat dh ngan nya. time ya duak2 layan anime rah AXN time maghrib ya. fave mek duak is cita RAVE MASTER. haha. bkn rokok ah. anime ya. haha. aku x tauk la nya pi aku still gila ngan cita ya smpe knek tk. anime nya stop half way pi aku da collection manga nya smpe abis. hoho.

aku gk ingat kotan suka glak ngan cita ya, masa kelas kafa ng jadi masa dating mek duak klaka hal cita ya tek. haha. trok trok. pi ng look forward la ngan kelas petang kafa ya dlok. haha. niat lain abis.

aku pindah time tengah2 darjah 4, tho. pi still pegi skolah ya for kelas kafa once a week. wktu ya kinda fell apart la mek duak. x tauk phl. pi time drjh 6, mek duak start texting. hoho.

rah SKBS time drjh 5 drjh 6 ya, aku salu mdh aku da grk, jual nama si H tk tek. saja jak. made things easier. actually xda mena glak pun. pi yala. bkn ada org tauk pun nk? haha.

so. klimaks. nya ajak aku jadi grk nya time dekat2 nk raya. ka time abis UPSR? mana2 la. ujong taun. mk tauk reaksi aku time ya? hee...

aku x eply text ya.

haha. staun aku x text nya pasya. ntah la. wktu ya rasanya aku dh borink li. dh lmk glak ska ngan nya. sepatutnya aku hepi la dgn confession ya. pi yg anehnya, aku xda rasa apa2 glak pun. haha. ada la freaked out ckit li. sbab ya alu x eply psya ignore trus ya. wasn't ready at that time, and i didn't see the need.

so anyway. a year later, mekorg text blit. but the spark was gone. ng xda trus tinggal. and ntah cmne boleh lost contact gk. last aku dgr cita nya PMR ari ya dpt straight B's. terer abis. respek aku ngan nya. gne ka leh dpt straight B's. haha. tk dgr cita dri adik angkat nya yg kouhai aku rah TUNAZ ya.

haha. yala cita nya tek. aku x ingat la nya skolah cne. SHOAW ka. or SMKA Matang. haha. mun jumpa sa nya gk kenal la. nya wajib la kenal aku - org mdh aku langsong x berubah. haha.

ada gmbr nya somewhere lam hard disk tk. mashi brik dlok. sama tusyen ngan nya time ya. malas nk carik tho. and mcm xpat upload gmbr jwak mlm tk.

aigoo. ng random la post tk. anyway. happy eid al-adh la. =)

"I was seven and you were nine; I looked at you like the stars that shined..."

Taylor Swift - Mary's Song (Oh My My My)

i've always loved this song. it's one of few songs i could never relate to myself but love anyway. haha.

blh x aku cita hal lagu tk? haha.

lagu si mary tk tek.

mary pdh. dlok, time nya gk 7 taun and olaki ya 9 taun, nya ngga olaki kdk bintang nk shining rah langit; kdk api yg kck. and bpk nya duak salu guro2, klak nya duak besa lak bergerek. mak cdak senyum jak, goleng2 mata (roll the eyes. gne nk translate? haha.) smbil pdh "oh my my my..."

mary soh mbak nya balit time rah pokok blakang umah dlok. olaki ya salu ugut nk pukol nya sbab olaki ya bsa gk pi x jwak olaki ya mlh gya. and time dunia nya duak just cgek blok perumahan ya jak. mary cabar olaki ya soh kiss nya, pi lari time olaki ya try. time nya duak gk kcik. oh my my my...

well. mary umo 16 taun time olaki ya x ngga nya as biak kcik gk. pi still jwak mary ngga olaki ya kdk bintang yg shining. and bpk2 nya duak yg salu guro2 hal nya duak tek, x jwak actually cayak yg nya duak ng alu actually bergerek. mak cdak senyum jak, goleng2 mata smbil pdh, "oh my my my...."

mary soh mbak nya balit time rah creek beds cdak pegi dlok. kol 2 pagi lam truck olaki ya, and mary sa mun da olaki ya jak dh ckup dh. and mary mk mbak nya balit ke masa first time klaie. ngempas pintu instead of kissing gudnait. olaki ya nggu rah luar smpe pagi. oh my my my.

lepas bapa2 taun tek. time nya duak tgh dudok2 rah tmpt fave rah bndr ya. olaki ya ngga nya, alu melutut.

mary soh mbak nya balit ke masa nya duak kawen. cgek bandar ya dtg and mak nya duak nangis. olaki ya mdh "i do" and mary pdh jwak. psya mary soh mbak nya balit ke umah tmpt nya duak temu first2 dlok. nya duak lepak ngan anak cdak rah halaman umah ya jwak. nya duak; after suma2 ya.

lak mun mary dh umo 87 taun and olaki ya 89 taun, nya still jwak akan ngga olaki ya kdk bintang yg shining rah langit. oh my my my...

oh my my. aku dh gila. haha. sori sori sori. *tandak suju*

damn. palak ku ng x btol la. pee aim ace la tk li. ya jwak da org x eply2 text. smpe jwak kpak lpas nyapu kelas tek. tch.

anne's gone crazy.

"I want you in my life..."

C.N. Blue - Love Revolution

aigoo. ujan gk. ptg tdk ujan jwak. psya berenti. tk ujan agk. haha. xpa. ujan rahmat nk? and mbak sejok jwak. pi yala, time sejok2 cmtk la manusia lam umah tk ska nk bkak aircond. haha. x phm na. way of thinking ng bkn inherited trait la kali.

aneh na apdet blog tgh2 exam week tk. haha. pi yala. x sbr nk nggu abis. mcm x bez jak trial tk. haha. suma subjek cam x konfiden. aii....bingong2. hmm. salah dkpn jwak. usaha < expectation.

so rasanya by the time result keluar klak maybe aku akan depressed so better apdet blog awal. haha.

hmm. pa nk cita oh. share gmbr jak la. haha. jap ah.

[nino2.0]

hee. tk keja mlm tdk. aok, yala tek. tauk x pnde chem, blaja la oh. gk ada cgek paper gk. haha. pi. hee. spent the night mlh bnda tk. dari kol lapan empat limak smpe sebelas something. DIY kit yg aku bli rah satok earlier the day. (nemu jejaka idaman malaya! haha. nickname credits to amin. ) i love DIY kits. even tho dengan jujurnya aku x la pnde ne jahit menjahit tk. pi better gk dri cooking la. haha.

[kedot]

disclaimer : ini bukan kucing saya.

pusak amin. one of 85537. haha. da feet fetish. haha. ska main rah kaki org. ptg tdk ngaco org main badminton. and tersangkut rah net. haha. apparently boleh tembus dinding? hoho. that's kedot yang bujat.

[siti]

this was me fifteen years ago. haha. i want that fairness back!

haha. ya jak la. lak mun ada kesempatan apdet gk. gudlak suma fomfaif! :D

"I was enchanted to meet you..."

Taylor Swift - Enchanted

lagu tk boleh dikatakan most played song lam handphone aku recently. haha. ntah la. bez. actually eh. aku mati-mati (well, x la smpe mati nk?) ingat tk OST cita Enchanted. nk Disney ya eh. bkn dhal. haha. nama sama pa. haha. pi lagu tk ng bez. haha.

and recently, aku enchanted jwak. ngan. . .

these lovelies. hee.

haha. arrived last Sat. aku expect nya dtg ari Jumaat ya. sangat looking forward eh, ari ya. time tgh molah Maths ya soh ku sa nk nangis ya, all I though about was, "xpa. xpa. abis tk, plg umah, CD dtg. plh jak cya." haha. ng penguat semangat la. ptg ya eh, sanggup x tdo petang nk nggu van oren-puteh ya. haha. pi x smpe2 jwak. nasib the next day smpe. hehe.

these are all three editions of Kis-My-Ft2's debut single, Everybody Go.

actually aku start ngumpol duit pake cdak pun debut single since 2009. duit2 yg dapat sempena PMR ya ckit jak aku belanja. duit oleh tutor pun aku simpan jwak. ng for time cdak tk debut klak. ahernya, dipake jwak duit ya taun tk tek. haha.

ya suma first press la. rasa nya aku antara those yg paling awal pre order li. haha. so, ada poster free ya. one for each. dh la besar abis. suma sama gk ya. x ku tauk pa nk plh ngan bnda ya. haha. will put up one later la. tunggu lok. x tauk cne nk nkah. sumpah besar. mun ayah ngga mesti bisin. haha. poster NEWS pun lom put up gk. aiya....

anyway. brief introduction. Kis-My-Ft2. Kisumai. 7 members. Kitayama Senga Miyata Yokoo Fujigaya Tamamori Nikaido. my favourite one is Tamamori. formed in 2005, debuted on August 10, 2011. the debut single is theme song for drama Ikemen Desu Ne, remake of Korea's You're Beautiful, in which Tamamori and Fujigaya star in.

and and. sapa2 yang ada nangga status with nombor besar2 rah FB ya...hehe. cdak tk pun sales figure, actually. updated daily. haha. jap ah. ngira lok. latest figure. hmm. dh 311 053 copied sold eh. haha. ng 3 ujong ya thanks to me la nk? XD

haha. mcm org free mena nulis pnjg2 about nothing tk. sak jak da 3 papers gk. 2 BAT, cgek PQS. haha. x sbr eh. penat da jak. 3 minggu exam. SPM ng equivalent to NEWT la oh. Nastily Exhausting Wizarding Test. haha.

well. okay lah. nk nyambong ngga the suite life of zack and cody lok. torrent yg tgh dload pi org x sba nk ngga, even video mala tersekat-sekat jak. haha. phl twins cute glak oh? haha. tdk aku mdh amin, jeles da ngan eqkha; nya da gene twins, da chance nk ada identical twins. time ya pnde mejin ndah aku da duak org firman versi mini. haha. mesti kiut. pi komfom bujat jwak la. haha. =p

"The truth is, I've realized that I've loved you this much..."

Still/As Ever - A.N. JELL

hey~

marek ari sukan last as a high school student. as much as aku x bersukan (at all), sdeh jwak la. even aku since form 1 dah nantik bila gk nk abis KK as in abis mena-mena abis. haha. but then, yesterday is the last of the last. saigo no saigo.

tapi sayang la. sbab BIRU pat no 3 jak. i mean, that's the worst in these 5 years i've been there. and, aku xda rah dewan pun marek, xda menyumbang sora for cheering like last 4 years - sbab nk neman dayang yg olatdah-pande-sakit-ndah-dekat-dekat-nk-trial.hopefully nk, mun aku sakit ka apa lak, nya sanggup la neman instead of ngga awang ambik hadiah. haha.

pa gk oh. trial dh dekat. gila dekat. next week jak ya. tch. and i'm still like this. sdehsdeh =(

xdala. haha. ntah la. rasa sangat blessed, this recent. sangat-sangat bersyukur to HIM. harapnya NYA xkan tarit balit la this blessing. harapnya this blessing would make me a better person jwak.

Ramadhan x lmk gk jwak. next monday dh. inshaALLAH. nk try khatam Al-Quran. sile doakan saye ye? haha.

talking like that reminds me of mizul. yang was there time aku ambik ujian lisan. yang aku, somehow, dapat 46/50. yang diambik dgn sangat nervous sbab preparation x brapa glak. yang disebabkan oleh bingong org lmbt turun padang (dataran) main kabbadi. yang ditambah gk duguen duguen bila dh turn aku mizul pnde masok balit lam bilit ya and klaka sebelah ustaz, right in front of me.

maybe that little F.B.I. of mine yg brik ckit skill bahasa Arab nya yang ntah apa2 tinggi ya to me nk? haha. nasib jwak time aku start ujian ya nya chow pegi klaka ngan ustazah at the end of the room. tactful jwak. plus one point. haha.

shh. keep that down from amin la. haha.

anyway, ari tk yg sepatutnya cuti telah dicemarkan oleh programa kecemerlangan chemistry (!). sangat menyedihkan. so...gotta go, nk menenangkan dirik over the fact. shin woo/jung yonghwa - here i come~

"I'm a dreamer...."

Sakamoto Maaya - Purachina; platinum

eheh. x gi skul ari tk. lak lam surat (mun ada) alasan nya aku akan nkah 'kurang sihat' pi actually, aku penat jak. haha. 'jak' seems to be understatement, tho. sbab malam tdk ng sangat, sangat penat; tertido jak2. ya pun gk ngantok jwak pagi tdk. tk dh okay ckit. hee.

ingat nk abiskan WGM eh. pi ntah la. susah na nk abiskan bnda ya. as much as i love the two of them, nowadays aku xpat layan cdak ya more than 5 minutes straight without getting bored. pahal ka. aiya.

so....tgh layan manga Cardcaptor Sakura tk. hee. sangat nostalgic. dlok anime nya ng all-time favourite la. even now pun. i used to love Li Shaoran like hell. back then, Shaoran would win over anyone else he's compared with.

well. back then, it was Shaoran. now, it's Mr. Doc now.

yes, still.

anyway. aku nk share duak gmbr tk jak actually.

from left : pman, amin, amad

ahaha. the three musketeers.

pman and amad are named by the one who gave them. as for amin, well, i got it from lun for my birthday this year. i got the right to name him as such, right, Q? i give you a Mr. Pilot, after all. xD

and here's nino looking all cool. haha. the necktie is really oversized. xD

okay. ya jak la. haha. nk molah keja lok. that's it, mun aku pat lepas dri manga tk la. haha. aigoo...

p.s. a week to the THE day. can't wait! xD

"So today, this random day, is our anniversary..."

KinKi Kids - Anniversary

before apa2, lagu anniversary tk one of my favourite of KinKi Kids'. salu jwak main rah Shounen Club dlok. sangat nice. lyrics pun mcm best. hehe.

anyway. anniversary. commonly org yg dh kawen la ada tk. tapi org in relationship pun ada jwak la, sa nya. well, ng patut ada la nk? haha. oleh yang demikian, aku, selama 17 taun idup tk, ng lom pernah ada la any anniversary date tk. heh.

i once asked, "is it important?" i mean, this thing called anniversary la. org ya mdh, aok, important. well. honestly aku x brapa nk stuju tapi aku "hmm" jak la.

memang la, mcm best da anniversary. mun ekot awda couple, tiap 10th every month brik adiah ngan masing2. sak jak anniversary cdak 10.10.10 jak pun. nice jwak la upa dpt adiah every month. pi sa nya dengan budget yg ada, aku x mampu li. haha.

tapi nk tapi nk. anniversary tk jak a remembrance to an event jak la nk? kdk wedding, or getting engaged, or confession. bkn date kta first suka ngan org ya ka apa nk? impossible jwak mun nk ingat tarikh hari first kta rasa someone ya special. haha.

that being said, well, i have no anniversary to celebrate. haha.

nevertheless, i still held February 12th and May 29th special, tho. =)

"Someday when I love someone more than anyone ever does, I'll go and boast about it..."

Tegomass - Hanamuke no Uta; farewell song

Lagu tk, somehow, reminds me back how heavenly Tegomass sounds. and it reminds me back jwak how much i love this duo, and this particular song.

tho, actually lagu fave Tegomass fave aku is Kiss ~Kaerimichi no Love Song~ (Kiss~Love Song on the Way Home~) .

sbb nk...rah bridge nya...haha. aku ska.

Ah, with that innocent face, you said to me,

"Hey, would you kiss me still even after I become a granny?"

"Hey, even then, I would stay the same."

haha. ntah la. mcm nice jak.

anyway.

da big news tk. haha.

anne eh. dh pnde layan lagu korea~

yay. *clapclap*

haha. tapi dlok layan jwak la eh. lagu lam Princess Hours ya bez. and I Think I Love You from Full House...lagu ya bez jwak. and Because I'm A Girl - lagu tk sa nya suma org tauk. haha.

but well. now dgr lagu band Korea. haha. cam bulak jak. pi yala. at least bkan SuJu. haha. CN BLUE. WGM la pun pasal tk. da cgek episode ya, cdak mbak masok CNBlue skali. Minhyuk the drummer ya kiut. phl ku msti ska drummer oh? haha.

nway. da 3 lagu cdak yg aku particularly enjoy la. Love Light, Love Girl, Love Revolution. aok, lagu cdak ng byk make word ya. gk2 dalam lagu Love Girl. haha.

btw. tho aku ska jak Seohyun, ku x mk dgr SNSD pun lagu, mun blh. sbab nk. lagu cdak ya. sgt la addictive. addictives x bgus pake health eh. haha. pi mena. sumpah. lagu cdak ya ng. marek ku ngga cdak perform Mr. Taxi rah Music Station. gk lekat lam palak line korus ya. aii~~

apa apa pun, aku still ekot dasar pandang ke timur la. haha. duak tiga ari tk layan Kanjani8. cdak byk lagu baru recently. My Home, for Ryo pun drama. 365nichi Kazoku for Tacchon's. My Home ya, time cdak peform rah Music Station - cdak nyanyi live, dgn instrument. ada la salah lirik, key lari pa suma...pi Ryo ng perfect, gne gne pun. haha.

anne = ryo-biased, forever.

eh. esok dah skolah oh. hoho. nice nice. da gk keja lom cyap tk. PSI, and karangan BM. yoshi, lpas cuti tk x leh main2 gk. tk mena tk. haha.

ya jwak x smpat ngabis WGM nk 51 episode ya...dload sng jak eh. nk abis nagga gk susah. haha.

klah. dh gk. ckup la ya li. haha. nk molah PSI lok. and kemas barang k esok. pat tdo awal. hoho.

p.s. Kayoubi wo otanishimini!

"Maybe, I don't know, perhaps it's love..."

AKB 48 - Iiwake Maybe; perhaps it's an excuse

damn. blog tk dah bedebu. HAHA.

jap jap. nice la. awal dah cussing. ei. damn ya cuss ka? mun ekot Loveless Dictionary Version 5.2, bukan la. hahaha.

exam dh abis; midyear exam. pi aku rehat kdk org dh abis SPM. hoho.

anyway. i got a new phone! say yay.

Nokia C6-01. jap. ku google gmbr nya lok.

haa. nya ya. kdk hp ku lmk eh? haha. nk lmk LG GT505 pi sa nya org x perasan pun mun x tauk. haha.

so far so good la. bez pake ya. actually GT505 pun okay jak. just aku angol message space nya limited glak. around 500 jak. x ska delete text aku tk. so...yala.

and and c6-01 tk ada style bca text kdk conversation. krek abis ku ngan bnda ya. hahahaha. sori la nk. org make iPhone mesti rasa bnda ya biasa jak nk. well. sori la. haha.

aah, cgek gk. photo editor lam hp tk bez. hee~

pa gk oh. wiFi ada, bluetooth ada (sa nya.mesti la ada nk? i mean. yala. ada la ya.haha.), camera 8 MP (sangat la wasted on me yg xda la suka ambik gmbr glak pun. haha.). well. okay la kira nya. yala. mistake nya xpat nulis tulisan jepon kdk iPhone my bro yg bujat. haha. :P

before aku mengundur diri (kebenda? haha.), lemme introduce you with two more korean i managed to remember their names. *clapclap*

aah. nak laki ya Yonghwa. nk mpuan ya Seohyun. call them Yoong~ ngan Hyu~un. to be honest, aku gk lom terer nyebut nama duak igek ya. despite someone's effort yg beria-ia abis nk ngaja. haha. btw. ya gmbr first nya duak ambik sama. ng expert nya duak tk ambik gmbr dkpn oh? HAHA.

dah. pastok nk ato brg lam hard disk. feymes abis bnda ya, suma org mk pinjam. aiya~

"And I l-l-l-like the way you spin my world around..."

Sterling Knight (Chad Dylan Cooper) - How Do We Do This

i have just been on the phone with eyzah. i have no idea how much i miss being on the phone until just now. *forced laugh*

we talked about a lot of things, me and eyzah. we could always talk about anything; it has been that way since our first year. truth to be told, i can't remember anything i'm hiding from her. not on purpose, of course.

jap jap. BM. okay.

so... haha. ntah la. org mdh 'honesty is the best policy'. kdg2 mena jwak. kdg2 bnda ya blh mkn dkpn. i mean, yala - x suma org dpt accept opinion org lain. tapi yala, susah jwak.

people hurt without intending to do so, yea.

aaah, ari tk tek star wars day? even tho aku x pnah layan star wars pi aku tauk phl! yay! haha. *clapclap* it's may 4th. may the fourth. "may the force be with you", see? lol.

and and, ari isnin ya tek 2nd of may. well. happy 2nd of may. apparently ari ya worth di celebrate. haha.

ah yes. mlm tdk, nino snatched the blanket from me. ntah gney ka. time tdo ya bgus2 ku pake selimut ya over kmk duak. then, around 4 pagi ya aku t'bgn sbab mcm sejok glak nangga2 blanket ya wrapped on nino sorang(?). jaik! ng ngekot perange org yg brik ka, nino?

anyway, when i say i miss being on the phone, i might as well be saying i miss him. nino, relay the message to him, please? =)

ookay. i should blaja bio. lelah eyzah mdh pa klua tek. haha.

"But you held your pride like you should've held me..."

Taylor Swift - The Story of Us

actually aku lupak phl aku choose line ya for the title sbab well, line ya agak xda kaitan dgn org yg bakal di mention dlm post tk. haha.

ah yes. org yg brik nino. the one i should dedicate the line, too. malam tdk nya masok lam mimpi. nya, ngan mak nya skali. ntah pahal pnde gi umah nya ndah tek lam mimpi ya tek. haha. mimpi mlm tdk plek. ada izzul. knk anok izzul for some reason. psya da dak rabbits and kazen2 ku suma. why? hahaha.

anyway. it's April 30th.

it's the birthday of two of my favourite people. cikgu favourite. and senior favourite.

the cikgu is mr lee hong leng, of course. and the senior is muhammad haziq roslan. yea, they share a same birthday (a fact told by the senior) and they share the same trait, too -unapproachable scary.

no, i'm kidding. lol.

the trait they share is - can attract people without any effort, according to ning and agreed by me. XD

so...nk crita hal the cikgu ka the senior tk? haha.

ckgu la dlok oh. XD

sir lee. first2 masok physics dlok ng x phm glak la ngan nya. cara nya ngaja. smpey wonder gney nya leh dpt anugerah guru cemerlang ya. i even sort of complained ngan mr doc and he gave advice along the lines "mun ktk x phm, tyk jak trus. mun ktk x tyk, nya alu assume ktk phm." so, since ya la anne jadi org yg paling banyak interact ngan sir lee. haha.

and yala, aku ska physics jwak bh. da org ya used to dpt highest mark for physics time nya form 4. and aku used to stalk klas 4E 2008 masok lab physics masa 3 ngan 4 ari slasa jwak. hoho. *bekas staker yg berjaya XD*

back to the topic. so knek tk, sir lee is one of my favourite teacher. kdg2 nya amusing jwak. and he gives wise opinions, too. and most importantly, he reminds me a lot of my doc. yala, birthday pun sama tek. haha.

okay, okay.

the senior. most referred lam blog tk as mr doc. it's a du'a, you see. so that he will actually become a doctor. haha. knal nya time form 1. sbab...haha, too private nk mdh rah ctk but it has something to do with nama nya yg dh xda gk ya. haha. had a crush on him time form 1 jwak. reason? he looked so impressive on the stage, giving a speech to end the usbu'. that's all - because he looked very damn impressive and the me at that time was like, "there's no fucking way i'll be able to talk in public like that".

rami org believe yg aku maseh suka ngan this senior. well. i would like to believe so, too. though actually mun "suka" ya equal to "mk jadi grk", bnda ya dh lmk dh abis. haha. but then, still "suka" ka ktk ngan someone ya bila ktk xpat nk "suka" org lain more than kta "suka" nya? haha. sbab yala, of course la aku dh crush lain lpas nya (e.g. little mr. fbi yg kiut! XD) but then gne2 pun, i still think he's the best, after all.

and i never regret liking him on the first place. in fact, i consider it as a blessing.

haha. actually nk, mun anne di mbak klaka hal this particular someone, ng sangat susah nk abis so better jangan continue ah. pnjg glak alu jadi post tk klak. sumpah. cyes tk. hahaha.

happy birthday to both of them, by the way!

ah yes. i wished the senior every year. tapi not this year. for some personal reason. haha. *manusia yg ska ngecik ati dkpn* hahaha.

*sigh*

i am supposed to get to revising bio but i suppose i would let myself drowned in the awesomeness of chad dylan cooper first. just finished downloading season 1 of sonny with a chance.

dan sesungguhnya anne ialah seorang yang tidak mengerti maksud 'priority', yea.

:D

"You saw me start to believe for the first time."

Taylor Swift - Mine

layan Swift-san again. kaki still a bit shaky. ari tk x gi skul sbab "nak rehat". sbab mun demam dtg gk time rah skul, xpat balit awal gk - have done that yesterday. better la rest rah umah. my bro advised so, too. so, i should have rest. ng tgh rest la tdk. but then yui ngan man the rabbit sgt bising rah lua. abis tumpah makanan dalam bekas ya. masa tgh isi aek lam bekas, man escaped. took me around half an hour nk masukkan balit nya dalam cage.

they say sweating is good to reduce fever. i agree, but my legs seems not to be up to it. shaky like hell when i got into the house.

man sure can run. or should i say, hop? well. moving fast, that's it. but well. it's man from 'firman', after all.

anyway. i wanna apologize. to my bro. for deliberately ignoring him last night. sangat, sangat sori, bro. seriously. it's the selfish me on last night. sebenar-benarnya, xda la terasa glak ngan nya marek. well. a bit. time physics ya. but then, it was nothing. i know he meant nothing. and later the eve, he caught me in the wrong time. it was selfish plus mischievous me at the time. and he got what he got.

sorry again, bro. i love you, too.

okay, cita hal bro abis ctk. next case.

dye slalu pdh aku kejam. and aku deny, each time. sbab sa nya aku x kejam. nk? i mean, x glak nk? haha.

yala. mun compare ngan those people yg invade countries, aku x kejam la. nk?

but well.

sometimes i do things i don't mean to. sometimes i do things not in a way it should be done.

i think i treated him wrong. correction : i treat him wrong. just it was worse at that particular time. to be honest, i couldn't get his expression at that time out of my mind. is that the expression people make when they are ditched? if it is, i wonder why anyone would ever want to ditch people.

no. x. aku x ditch sapa2.

nk?

the point is - i didn't mean to do that. i wanted to refuse, tapi bkn gya. i did it wrong. i'm sorry.

you must have imagined i would accept it with a smile, right? i'm sorry again.

but those two texts you sent me for these two nights, i appreciate them like you would never imagine.

hey, remember that photo we took together about 3 years ago? i wonder if there's any chance to find it again. to this date, it's the first and only photo of only two of us that got us smiling to the camera, you know. lol.

*sigh*

blog tk dibuat dgn harapan aku dapat rant dlm BM. peringatan utk diri sendiri. hahaha.

"Through the good times and bad times, I wanted to be everything you wished for..."

Porno Graffiti - EXIT

this song is kinda addictive. half the reason why i stay watching Taisetsu na Koto wa Subete Kimi ga Oshiete Kureta (All You Ever Taught Me is Precious Things) is because i want to listen to this song at the end of each episode. before i went and searched for its MP3, that's it. lol.

but i still watch Taisetsu na Koto, tho. even actually crita ya bkn my type. even setting rah school (sbab watak utama nya, duak org cikgu, sorang student), pi crita nya more to adult stuff. marriage, pregnancy, workplace pressure, etc. but then, well - all the story taught me is precious things.

lol.

the main lead, Kashiwagi Shuji (played by Miura Haruma) reminds me a lot to someone i know. they both are good at blaming themselves, accepting their mistakes. but then, they are also good at running away, letting others to make the decisions to make things right again. that is so tidak adil, you see. bila kita tauk kita salah, then be responsible.

i was never really in a relationship, as in the usual context of 'in relationship'. that's a f-ing truth. but i suppose i am right when i say in a relationship, girls make most decisions. because boys are like that - they hate complicated things (that are not maths. lol. applies to most boys).

so when Shuji said "i'm so sorry. you can decide about us," to his fiancée, Natsumi and she went "what do YOU want to do? do I always have to decide? YOU are the one who messed up!" - i was like, "NATSUMI FTW! GO DIE, SHUJI!"

lol. that's a bit exaggerating but well. i am with Natsumi all the way. really. do we always have to decide?

wait. maybe this is for normal girls like me and doesn't apply to oh-we-are-so-not-like-most-girls type of girls. so there.

so, pendek kata - even tho Islam angkat darjat female like it was never done before, male is still made as the leader. maka, sepatutnya la male yang decide. even when female's decision is better. sbab male pun should learn how to make better decision jwak bh. they're the leaders after all.

of course la, i'm speaking from my own point of view. because these things happen in real life. to me, to people around me.

another thing. in the term of nasihat-ing - actually xmk mention tk, sbab there was a case on this yg xda kaitan pun dgn the one i am about to mean, so sila jangan salah faham - kdg2 we have to see the situation. just because org ya salu buat salah, x semestinya that particular person buat salah all f-ing time. i mean, come on. what the heck.

we have to learn to see a white sheet with a dot, not a dot in a white sheet.

it's a nasihat for myself, more than anything else.

anyway, i'm looking forward to finishing Taisetsu na Koto. i wish Shuji ends up with Natsumi, even after all that. weird, huh? lol.

in one episode, Natsumi said, "a relationship wouldn't go well if one party loved the other too much. i think, i love you way too much, Shuji," and Shuji answered with "you think i don't love you as much as you do?"

i seriously don't know why i'm putting that in but well. i like it, and there shouldn't be any reason for liking, should there? XD

another precious thing Kashiwagi (Shuji)-sensei and Uemura (Natsumi)-sensei taught me.

puzzle makes a good door gift for a wedding, doesn't it?

lol.

random Anne is random~ ^o^

"Have you ever thought, just maybe..."

Taylor Swift - You Belong with Me

okay. boh tyk phl ku layan taylor swift knek tk. haha.

well. ku cita jak la oh. haha. unlike nad yg most probably dh hafal suma lagu si swift-san (pnde2 jak menge-san kan org. haha.) tk, i used to know only two songs of hers. yg salu main rah radio la. love story ngan fifteen. psya speak now come along, layan jwak speak now. setakat tiga ya jak la. then, alkisah nya pada suatu hari ketika saya dan peyra dan pat dan luq berkabung akan pengakhiran anime kimi ni todoke, luq posted a video on kazehaya-sawako, yg pake lagu the story of us. carik2 tek, swift-san pun duhal.

ceritanya - lagu the story of us itu agak hit home. it reminds me of the longest two weeks i've ever been through. sumpah. often when i listen to that song, i think "i should've found this song on that particular week and it could be the theme song." lol.

oleh sebab kerana (*chopchop* - bunyi language knk butcher.haha.) itulah, dtg rajin ndah weekend ya tek meng-download all three albums of swift-san. and discovered that, after all, aku x jwak lyn suma lagu nya tek. tapi some ya lekat jwak la.

contoh nya - you belong with me atas ya.

my lun likes the song as well. she insisted me to watch the video. and when i finally did this eve, it becomes the reason for this post. lol.

i love the song, really. the lyrics, well, kinda hit home, too. but not really. i mean, well, my sneakers are quite high-heeled. lol.

but the video is, i don't know, eye-opening? the message i got at the end of it is "if you want your so-called best boy friend to finally notice you and finally got the courage to confess his undying love to you (and ditch his bitchy girlfriend in the process), throw away your nerdy look, and dress up like you never did before." well, that, and this - "boys are jerks."

okay, not all but most.

pi seriously la. he could have confessed, could have shown her that piece of paper all this time. mpuan ya kira ok la, x brani confess sbab the guy is taken. pi the boy's action to confess time mpuan ya gi prom dgn dh kck tek molah ku sa cam "well. mun nya x kck gya, mun nya gk nerd tek, msti ko xkan confess nk? nk?"

and they ask me why i turn to contact lens and desperately want to lose weight.

x, no, bkn nk impress any of my existing male friends. bkn nk attract more either. for self-confidence, actually.

the point is, the saying 'don't judge a book by its cover' agak sukar untuk digunapakai. for boys and girls alike.

even for me, yea.

on side note, i miss my bro and i prefer him in red. =)

"I go back to December all the time..."

Taylor Swift - Back to December

"kmk ska anne ari tk. mek x ska anne marek," said Eqkha yesterday.

i only laughed but well, i don't like the-day-before-me, too. the day before, she told me, "anne.... boh antap glak ktk tensen," and i replied with, "aie. smpey la jwak kmk x leh tensen..." haha. but it's true. what's so wrong with it, right? lol.

i guess it's because everything shows in my face; if i'm happy, then i'm like =D all the way and if i'm not, i would be like....well, i can't find the right emote for it. like i've to fight against everyone in the world, i suppose.

but then, i'm not the type to say "yeah, i'm good" when asked "are you okay?" while actually eating my heart out. or at least, i'm not that type anymore. i lie quite a lot, white and not, but that particular lie needs so much energy that i'm not planning to do it often. last Thurs was a total no-no situation i would produce such lie.

i miss the me back in December. it wasn't the best phase in my life; in an angle, it was the worst. but these days i miss those days very much. i miss the me living them. if Eqkha could see me at the time, she would like it for sure.

it was something like summer fling for me. it doesn't fit the normal days, it has to end anyhow. so yea, inertia hurts, you know?

and i go back to December all the time.

oh well. it's not that bad. i still got Nino - the reason why i stay in bed every time i got the chance to these days. =)

"If only I don't bend and break..."

Keane - Bend and Break

it's FRIDAY, FRIDAY.... lol.

sumpah. lagu ya ng....well. haha.

but anyway, yala, it's friday today. even tho xda jwak ku free time weekend pi at least da la masa k bernafas ckit. and k cuddle jwak oh, No? (Nino mdh aok. haha. nyaman na nya jadi face rest time online cmtk. XD)

purin (pudding, in English) di berik Mila, imported khas from Japan dri kakaknya, bruk abis. ku ingat nk mkn ckit2 pi sa nya mun tndh lmk glak lam fridge ya x nyaman glak jadi nya lak. haha. even tho aku basically x mkn purin and x ska anything of green tea, purin green tea tk exception. hehe.

tdk time PQS aku ngan Lun dtg klmj ndah. bukan alang2 klmj mek duak. lagu KRU. haha. mun org dgr ya komfom x cyk; mek duak crushing on Yusry, and the whole Yusry-Erra thing, and such movie as Kuliah Cinta. lol. it seems unbelievable, it seems so long time ago now.

and now kmk duak Nino tgh layan balit Kuliah Cinta. haha.

btw. marek nangis rami2 smpey kembang mata; nangis berjemaah. haha. 5E girls tauk la phl. well. i would like to share something la, on the matter.

1.

our thinking is greatly influenced by our surrounding and upbringing. those are the major influences. that's why, to put ourselves in someone else's shoes is not really an easy thing to do; especially when you're young and happy. i, for one, would not like to blame myself if i am unable to think the way others are thinking. this is the way i am brought up, so this is the way i think. so i, as a person full of normality, tend to choose my friends among those with same way of thinking, thus my circle of friends.and i definitely won't change my way of thinking just to mingle, thank you.

2.

people hurt others even without intending to. somethings things look so trivial that we consider it too little to care. i rarely intend to offend anyone (there are times when i do) but as impulsive as i am, i can only hope that those i offended without any intention do not take it to hearts. they say i am too impressive. oh well. i wonder if there's anything i can do about that.

or i'll just do what eqkha told me. she told me not to change. "be yourself," she said. how i love her. =)

well. i won't change, then. i'll just improve myself. lol.

dh kol 4.30 eh. ku Asr lok la. pstk smbg movie gk. hehe.

p.s. lagu Bend and Break sgt best. for past 2-3 days, lagu ya jak dimain. XDD

"Stand by me; nobody knows what it's gonna be..."

Oasis - Stand By Me

funny i'm putting this as the title. more like, don't stand by me so that nobody will know what it was gonna be. haha. kidding. or not.

so...haha. online on my bro's lappy. sbab apparently gerek ku lom bait. (please la Mr Compaq; what have i done wrong? T___T) so ayah tek soh dani brik pinjam laptop tk kejap sbab "kakak nk molah kerja". haha. ng la. niat nk molah scrapbook for physics ya tek.

pi bak kata Querida ku yg terchenta, "the idea of scrapbooking has not spread in Malaysia" so malas la ku nk molah nya dlok. even tho nya physics. haha,

tgh baca crosstalk antara Ryo ngan Pi. mcm nk nait jak level sugar tk... (sweet! how come they're not gays? haha. not that i want them to be.)

seriously. Pi? Ryo-chan? i want little nicknames like that too! *random* lol.

eh. back to topic. recently ku dh kira x dependent glak ngan gerek ku ya so ku ingat dapat la kiranya bertahan xda nya kejap. well. i think i did well. biasanya mun dh almost a week cmtk ku dh kdk org half-dead dh. haha.

gah. Pi soh Ryo mkn sayo. ku gk ingat time cdak molah tour dlok, Ryo yg bisin "Pi! makan sayo ya jwak, ish!" and Pi was like, "aok, aok...ku makan la tk..." haha.

talking about being half-dead. haha. Ning mentioned in her last post; tdk. well. tdk ya. ntah la. felt like i need a change of air. my seat time ya kdk xda breathing space. tdk Madhi dh offer dh nk swap seats for good. pi ku pdh pa? "aie. boh jak. jaoh dri Mizi." haha.

ah. random thought. i've been with Mr Compaq for almost two years now. and the reason why we almost never got problem with each other - he never makes me feel jealous.

haha. ku knk skizo ka apa tk bh?

esok SPM klua. ku imagine mun ari tk next year. sa nya ku x tdo li. online jak - chat ngan mr doc cnun. nya ska jak molah ku makin cuak. haha. cyes eh. gney ndak ka.

damn. ku dh takut tk. haha.

wah. lappy tk mdh ngan aku, "it's 11 o'clock." nasib nya x mdh "oi. tdo gk." (mun nya mdh gya ku ng berekot masok bilit. sumpah.)

bila nk abis entries lam friend page LJ ku tk bh? dh 110 entries dh ya. haha.

so, dgn ketiadaan gerek ku yg tersayang itu, and ipod pun dh abis battery - officially time malam ng aku xda life. dgn itu, tdo jak la yg paling bgus. may i take that pill for flu? it makes me feel so good pi lun pdh "gya la rasa penagih dadah, tauk x?" yea, i know. haha.

anyway, still fighting for my 'freedom' yg bila diterjemah ke dalam bahasa normal = car license. lol.

apa apa pun, esok remind Man mbak kasut. mesti!

"And years make everything alright..."

Keane - This is The Last Time

first of all, my prayers to Japan and its people.

ari jumaat ya x smpt baca apa2 on this. just nangga tiba2 Iwate pndey trending ndah rah Twitter. eran jwak time ya. then Mila text mdh hal tsunami+earthquake pa suma ya.

mlm tdk dh nangga la ckit how wave ya destroy pretty much everything in range. scary. ng xda cara gk nk lari dh ya. Johnny's dah anta brita mdh suma idols cdak selamat. pi dengarnya umah family Hikaru rah Sendai dh xda gk. Sendai ng dekat jwak ngan Iwata ya eh. sa nya umah Ryo rah Osaka xda pa2 la. ada la rasa quake ya li.

my dad said, cdak akan bangun balit klak, mcm they did after WWII. but it took years back then, it will as well now. they suffered so much; what with byk pelabuhan musnah cmya jak, and nuclear reactor cdak rosak jwak. boh pike hal nuclear reaction dlok la - electric power shortage ya dh cukup dh soh cgek negara huru-hara.

i would like to view this as kifarah dosa. and a way to give them hidayah jwak. the Japanese people, if anything, suit more as muslims than any other people. they got all the values a Muslim need. syg, cdak lom dpt hidayah; dakwah susah nk smpey ngan cdak. hopefully musibah tk, in a way, boleh jadi a medium untuk hidayah ya.

ameen.

a quote from governor of Tokyo, Ishihara Shintaro,

The identity of the Japanese people is greed.

This tsunami represents a good opportunity to cleanse this greed, and one we must avail ourselves of.

Indeed, I think this is divine punishment.

see, they're intelligent people. too bad they don't have any religion to hold on at times like this. majority of them don't have any specific belief. they do Hatsumode (first visit to shrine) every new year, get their fortunes told and give some coins to pray at shrines, yet celebrate Christmas, wear crosses and get married churches.

my mum went as far as calling my dad and said, "pdh Siti boh gago nk blaja rah Jepon! xda mek nk suroh!" when she heard about this. well. ya cita klak. musibah gya, cney2 boleh knk. bkn rah Jepun jak. even Malaysia. bukan org Jepun jak byk molah dosa. at least x byk kes buang anak rah cnun eh. paling2 teruk cdak pun, gk pndey nk make condom. pendek kata, mun dh nama ajal, cney2 boleh mati,

tgh cuddle ngan nino atas katel pun boleh mati mun Allah ng nk ngambik balit nyawa.

next entry lak insyaALLAH aku akan share la apa yg aku dpt dri program weekend ya tek.

and i'm on my own rehab. but "get the koran"; i'll do that, too. thank you.

"You don't wanna see the truth; throwing away all the words that hurt..."

Kamenashi Kazuya - Plastic Tears

people tend to mess up things. and if there's any messed-up, people tend to wish it is by someone else, not them. perhaps i am like that as well.

but then i like to do things my way. so that i would not regret it later and even if i do, i wouldn't be able to blame people.

so i did this one thing on my own thinking. i probably mess something up pretty badly in the process. i wonder if i actually regret it. maybe not, maybe just not yet. but either way, i couldn't blame anyone. i want to be the one doing it, instead the one that is done it to, anyway.

i mean, que sera sera, right?

case closed.

so, weekend tk xpat online. da program. outing. it's something new for me. hope it'll do me good la. mr doc will be happy if he knows, i suppose. i mean, yala, he's been trying to pull me into that side for years. so now, instead of taking the rope you've offered, i'm going to climb the hill by myself, okay, doc? just in case you're not there to offer the rope forever.

dgrnya dh balit cnun dh nya ya. mun mena, ng xda rezeki la tahun tk oh?

recently rasa nya aku sgt2 appreciate nikmat sihat. sbab rami among my friends yg x sihat. perhaps it's the pressure; too much force on an area. nk mdh aku actully sihat ya xpat la jwak. my level of immunity is quite weak. too dependent ngan drugs, that's why. lymphocytes ku suma jadi malas dh. tapi alhamdulillah la, nothing serious.

i wish my friends, especially my Q, would just get well. i want them to get their health back. i would give anything for that; even my nino.

"I'm afraid; sometimes it even becomes painful. Yet, I still believe in you even now."

YUI - Why?

the title above is quite relevant; just scratch the last part on 'believing'. lol.

tdk rah school discuss hal marriage. sa nya dh dkat nk a month tajuk tk jak. haha. ustazah lin yg sgt la kiut ya mdh mun blh boh la pike glak hal marriage tk dlok. haha. saya x pike glak, ustazah. mena. pi mun each time saya imagine future of being married ya, org yg megang role 'husband' ya ng x berubah - gney la? haha.

but well. ng mena la. duak org yg always da lam future i imagined - mr doc, and the one who looks best in red.

dh nk suma paper dh dpt. so far xda fail. x tauk la PQS pndey fail ndah. x la sa nya. x eh. nk? *bingong*

and and....after years, ahernya ku dpt 100% gk. x ingat bila last pat full mark eh. maok time drjh 2 li. haha. and surprise. it's Add Maths. o.O

and and... dgn ini, rasmila fakta yg Anne adalah org yg kurang bersivik. haha. 44% jak! gila mena. jaik result alu. ngaco GPA jwak. grr...

how eh, when kta xda any personal vendetta ngan someone ya, pi they piss us off, anyway, just like that? first time aku experience bnda ya ari tk. i mean, yala, maybe la aku envy that accent but thinking it over, do i want to speak like that?

hm. no thanks.

esok debate gk. masok esok dh 3 ari straight debate jak2. kepak da jwak. dh dpn BKB ya panas. -.-

and nino? org ya still loves you, it seems. and of course, i love you, too. rindu nk cuddle. next week 'kay? next week kta cuddle jak 24/7! haha.

"Nothing is scary when I have you with me."

Tackey & Tsubasa - Ai wa Takaramono; love is a treasure

it has been a good day.

ari tk bgn cam biasa. gi tuisyen. cam biasa, lmbt ckit. hehe. Azie dh reserve tmpt biasa so dok rah blakang agk. pi x sejok glak ari tk. hee. da biak baru. mka kdk Non-chan. ka kdk Hongo Kanata? i think the latter. haha.

pulang 2syen, lepak umah Dye jap. pinjam komik nya. Rokka-chan no Koi. bez. otw pulang singgah rah mall. malas nk masok dlm supermarket ya; browse kdey magz, x nemu pa2 yg bez so the money (yg asal nya k "bli majalah") was spent at Magic Bite instead. to sapa2 yg wonder, waffle rendang x brapa nk nyaman. x rugi pun mun x coba.

ptg gi umah Dye. celebrate b'day nya tek. ingat aher. duhal rami jwak lom dtg. Lun first2 mdh nya x dtg. lelah kol nya k phone Dye tek. haha. turned out nya turned up jwak later. (haha. nice usage of language, me.) hugged her when she did.

had so much fun, teasing Dye, mostly. laughed a lot with Mizi too. and Pzah. lol. and Man is wearing red; i like~

i've been saying this a lot recently but i love my friends. honest i do.

Nad is curious about the mentioned 'sayang' who gave Nino. she got Amin in mind. I was like, "WTH?" Isn't that, like, insulting me somehow? haha. she then proceeded with listing all my male friends. Nad Nad... abaikan jak la. x penting pun nya ya. lak2 maybe ktk tauk la. not soon la, yg penting. haha.

some pictures, now.

kek si birthday girl ya tek. surprised me. dh la pink. da gmbr pusak gk ya.

nothing like her at all. haha.

me with dear Lun. and ntah sapa pun pusak. haha.

me and Lun and birthday girl. i think i'm going to frame this. *hearts*

with the 'goddess'. lol.

last two pictures ya thanks to Awang. yg second ya...Nad i think. and the first one was Dye's.

btw, knk puji kck leh goddess tek. x tauk gney nk respond. haha. makseh la Aa. sayang mek ngan ktk. sumpah.

anyway. i wasn't really kidding when i said i'm so going to miss this yearly event of Dye's birthday party next year. perhaps i won't actually miss her mom's spaghetti like i said i would but well, gathering and having fun like this i will for sure.

"May I live for you?"

KAT-TUN - YOU

if i may say something, lam dunia tk, bnda yg paling overrated is something we call 'love'.

and when i say love here, i mean humanly love la.

first of all, ku layan hot fm. aok. yala. lame. sori la, parents ku x pat dgr hitz ka lite ka bh. and bila lyn hot fm ya, byk la lagu melayu ya aku dgr otw gi cney2 (mun aku x pake ipod time ya). and around 90% lagu melayu is love songs.

sappy, ntah-pa-pa pun love song.

yg molah ku sa cam ng xda idea mena la org kta tk.

bkn nk mdh ku x layan love songs la. layan ng layan jwak. even kdg2 lyrics ya soh ku molah mka =___= . contoh paling sng, lagu atas ya la. time borink2 marek ku browse ipod, nemu lagu ya. bkak, dgr. "Oh, tk lagu cita Sappuri." and psya first2 line dh mksdnya kdk "Mun aku idup demi kau, boleh x oh?" rasa x mk tauk jak pa mksd the rest of the song. haha.

tapi ku dgr on repeat jwak lagu tk. sbab nya bez. haha. reminds me a lot ngan drama Sappuri ku nangga last year. lam HDD ku jak da 30 Japanese drama, Sappuri one of them. and dalam byk2 drama (should be over 50, ada yg ku nangga rah streaming sites jak), Sappuri is the only one yg message nya ng total love, xda bnda lain.

ingat gk ku time ku ngabis drama tk dlok. senyum-krek-tetak sorang2 dpn laptop smpey mak tyk "phl kau?". love overdose la ya. sweet glak kotan tek. cita tk xda soh ku nangis glak. tapi da cgek quote tk, from the main character, yg aku gk ingat smpey knek tk.

"Even to love, you have to have the qualification."

sbab bnda ya ng mena. haha.

another love story yg ku ska is Tatta Hitotsu no Koi; The One and Only Love. nangga, title dh gya. haha. pi cita tk byk touch bnda lain jwak, alongside the 'love' ya. nice. heroine yg remind me much of myself. cmya li aku mun ditakdirkan aku tk kaya. haha.

but the thing is. yala. the 17-year-old me kdg2 xpat paham how important such thing called 'love' tk ngan manusia seusia. cam nk, marek. aku TERbkak cgek msg lam sent item kwn ku sorang tk. TERbaca la msg good morning nya for grk nya terchenta tek. nyesal abis ku psya eh. ku ingat "morning syg!" ya kdk normal la jwak for a good morning msg; ada jwak duhal yg nganta msg setaraf honey ditambah 4 kati sugar gya.

honey + 4 kati sugar = sickeningly, killingly 'sweet'. ugh. pike jak dh rasa nk throw up. seriously.

dh2. x mk ingat. mena2 jwak ku muntah lak.

so, konklusinya - aku ng x phm ngan org yg pat nangga, pat jumpa org yg cdak ska basically stiap ari. sbab, yala. in two years, aku jmpa ngan org yg kira equivalent ngan "org yg aku ska" (sbab post ya kosong currently) ya twice jak bh. kira lucky mena pat jumpa YEARLY basis ya. taun tk pat ndak jumpa ka.

perhaps it's for the best la. distance makes heart grows fonder after all. in my case, distance makes heart keep fond.

because anne gets bored too easily that the prospect of getting tied to one person only is currently not comprehend-able for her.

p.s.

mun dh dri kol 6 pagi smpey 4 petang nangga muka ya, psya plg umah smbg gk text x stop2 smpey tdo psya ulang gk bnda yg sama esok ari - da cgek feeling yg maybe cdak x tauk wujud called 'rindu' ya x smpat nk nyelit pun eh. tdah mena.

p.s.s.

i miss you, mr doc.

"Because there are 'goodbye's for the sake of tomorrow..."

Tackey & Tsubasa - Sotsugyou ~ Sayonara wa Ashita no Tame ni ~ ; Graduation ~ The 'goodbye' is for the sake of tomorrow~

abis ujian progresif. yay yay.

so... let's review each subject...

BM

gila x cukup masa! start aher. even da masa extra pun, soalan baca mena2 bok phm. smpt molah draf duak perenggan, psya salin balit. nk lain tulis trus jak. dh berebut gya tek maseh jwak exceed 250 words. gney ka. =____=

BI

article dpan hal le scrapbooking ya made we went "apa hal bnda tk senang glak..." bila bkak blakang, isik tmpt kosong with given words, jaws dropped alu. toleh ku lun, duak2 lu mouthed "what the heck is this?" (talk about being twins). pi sa nya i did it okay la. hopefully.

BAT

erk. haha. tk subject yg disarcrificed demi Bio ngan PSI (pi mana2 pun ku x blaja glak. haha.). time ujian ya ku duak mizi dh hi-5; geng gagal BAT. turns out ku lulus, tho. 48%. hepi mengalahkan org dpt 100% time dpt tauk ya. senyum jak ustaz nangga aku. haha.

MATHS

x ckup masa jwak! and soalan 17 soh ku sa nk nangis. kotan berebut ngan masa tek alu x ter-comprehend soalan ya. sa nya da jwak careless mistake ku rah soalan lain ya. arap x trok glak la. ya jwak mizi sempat tdo...sempek ku leh biak ya; "ku sorang ka rasa bnda tk susah?" haha.

ADDMATHS

hm. okay jwak la tdk. x susah glak. bak kata eyna tek, mesti da org pat 100. mun ku wish ku one of orang ya, leh x? ameeen.

BIO

haha. paper ya ngajar ku kepentingan berbahasa Inggeris dgn betol sak x meng-confuse-kan org. pi ng ku x blaja glak Bio pun. 70%. not quite bad, eh?

CHEM

ahahahahahaha. sumpah. bnda tk ng...ntah eh, potassium cyanide, mun ekot Addin. bkak bku, abis semua facts ya direnong ku. ng xpat masok. x mk masok li. xpa. cmya jak. fine. *kecik ati dkpun* ku dh expect fail dh eh. sa nk melompat ku bila pat result 40% cun. ka ng melompat time ya? haha. Amin 40% jwak. adakah ku dh sama level ngan manusia paling terer di dunia? wah. HAHA.

PHY

tk bok ambik pagi tdk sbab da mishap marek. hm. ok jwak la. just instrument ya ku ng xda idea trus. something-scope tek mizi pdh. "xda lam vocab kmk bnda ya," ku pdh mizi balit. haha. dh cam suma org jak tauk bnda ya. da jual rah emart ka pa? o.O

PSI

could've done better. pi yala. rezeki ng smpey cya jak. byk salah bab perkahwinan. sbab nota dh awal plh, so dh lpak. x smpt baca balit jwak. thus, 84%.

PQS

hmm. kinda okay. ku x ingat pun pa soalan nya, even one. haha. i did revise so okay la kali. at least da effort. haha.

SEJ

ku bingong tk. haha. kotan byk glak fact tek, nk di masok nya lam ya suma yg ku x expect. sdeh2. sapa syeikh Syed Muhammad Al-Hadi, nway? phl suma org nkah nama ya as pioneer geraka Islah? ku sama jwak nkah ya. haha.

PSK

.... ntah pa2. marek guro2 mek duak Ning pdh " oit. ktkorg better blaja mena2 PSK mlm tk. boh glak blaja edmet. PSK susah gk." skali tek ng mena jwak. paloi mena. (mizi, pnjm word ktk lok. haha.). cam fail jak. even tho x masok SPM pi jaik la result tk lak. aiya. =____=

dh, abis 12 subjek.

mlm tk try x tdo awal. ngabis hmwk. pat focus ngan debate gk. dh ari Isnin tk trus. bahagia mena. lak da x smpat molah speech alu kdk rya; klaka jak skati while kaki shaking kdk rah Greenland. =____=

i was saying to Dye earlier; takut na mun mak perasan Nino xda atas katel ya. lain gk dipike nya lak.

perhaps i'm a masochist after all. *sigh*

"If I could just forget, how easy this will be?"

Tegomass - Sunadokei; hourglass

seriously. lagu tk ng bez layan tgh2 emo. haha. xdala. lagu tk lyrics nya ng hal org heartbroken. tambah gk sorang manusia duak org tk ng~~ soothing. layan mena la. haha.

jap, ku heartbroken ka? haha.

the answer it..naa. mun la heart tk pnde broken, sa nya dh jadi fine powder dh. on daily basis bh. haha.

btw. it's Dye's birthday~ yay. haha. ingat nk wish nya at midnight tek. tertido gk. xpala. brik Awang the honour. ari tk nya (Dye) spaced out more than usual. pahal ka. sak jak birthday. ku mdh, "x leh =( time bday," coz da org mdh gya ngan aku dlok. pi nya ilek jak mdh, "ney da =( .. =| jak." sa nk head-banging sa. haha.

apa2 la. happy birthday, dear!

god, i wan an Uekusa Yuta. mata x alang2 gk besar; kdk patong. ya jwak sora ng 30 ribu kali ganda kacak gk dri Justin Bieber. brapa dh umo nya tk knek tk oh? 16? ka sama 17? lmk x nangga. wahai Mr Katsuhide, udah2 la gk. soh nya balit jdi Johnny's Jr gk...

bez jwak mentor-mentee tek. maybe cdak lain borink pi ku ska jak dgr Mr Lee klaka. cam bez jak. delighted to hear his acknowledgement on how org Barat ambik ilmu yg asalnya Islam pun time Renaissance (bila ku nk pnde ngeja bnda tk? =__=). and and. ku bok tauk actually Pearl Habour ya American pun duhal. ku ingat jak British lamak2 tk. haha. and the reason nya pdh phal Nagasaki and Hiroshima was attacked pun make sense jwak. never saw it that way, me. "Your enemy always seems wrong, right?" he said. mena ya, sir. sori. haha.

esok Physics ngan Sejarah ngan BM. ingat nk layan Hantu Kak Limah Balik Rumah mlm tk. pat join dk Mizi klaka lak. borink mala dgr jak. haha.

and it reminds me to something. nice mena la bila itok pi xpat tyk ngan sapa2 tk. bahagia bis. uh huh.

how many days left? 10?

my bed seems empty without that black-and-white thing. and my bolster feels too small to be hugged, too.

"I wonder if you can hear it from where you are?"

YUI - Your Heaven

invisible - according to Loveless Dictionary 5.2th Edition is the state of being unseen, unnoticed and/or ignored.

ignored.

so pendek kata, ari tk ku rasa invisible. 'rasa', sbab ku pun x sure jwak la. yala, dh ska ngecik ati dkpn tek nk? but well. really. mcm knk ignore. ku xda salah pa2 pun ngan nya. rasanya. xda la nk? pi...ish. ntah eh. xpa la. last2 tdk ok jwak. perasaan jak li. apa2 pun, bnda ya ng soh ku x brapa nk btol la ari tk tek. (ya jwak dye molah andaian ntah pa2. tlg la. dh byk glak drama real life tk, xpyh la ku nk blakon skali. =__=)

still, bnda tk xda effect whatsoever ngan results test ari tk sbab preparation ng kurang or xda trus. most probably fail BAT. doc, sori.

God i miss my Lun. cpat la debate. mk klaka ngan nya gk! get well soon Q!

esok chem ngan PQS. gah. xda rupa jwak. debate. prepare speeches. abiskan bku Ning jwak.

rindu ngan Nino. lamak x cuddle oh Nino? nangga la mun rasa nk cuddle malam tk. kira nasib bait x knk tikam dbah katel bh Nino. da jwak terpike nk molah gya. x smpey ati jak.

so....12 days to go. wait, it's only been two days? *sigh*

"You're the sly one, after all."

YUI - Namidairo

14 days and counting; we'll see where this will lead us, okay?

tdk, nani mdh nya x penah nangga ku nangis. terkejut jwak. sbab mun ekot lam rami2 org lam klas ya aku should be one of the crybabies. just, yala, ng jarang la nangis lam klas. but then last year i had a breakdown time amin ngaja edmet. well, bkn ku nangis sbab nya ngaja edmet la. pathetic mena mun gya. haha. for some reasons yg some tauk, some x. x kisah la pa2 pun. pi ya fact yg ku ng pernah nangis in public. fify mdh time f2 nya da nangga ku nangis. ku x ingat pun. ari last f2 ya suma girls 2A pakat nangis pa suma pi aku ngan lun ilek jak. sapa ka tdk mdh ku da nangis time ari last pengetua dlok. hmm... ada ka? ku touching nangga poem ya ada la.

pi pa2 pun, i was a crybaby back then (sapa pat celen rekod nangis dri asar ke isyak x berenti? juh. haha.) , i am still one now. mostly nangis nangga cita jepon la sbab real life susah nk soh ku nangis. haha. pi recent tk kotan xda masa nangga cita jepon tek alu nangis ntam real life jwak lu. heh.

god. pa dingereco ku tk?

ku sa bgus ku tdo lok. palak dtg x btol la tk. ready esok knk lecture dye gk. i've done something worse than cutting my hair. haha. but seriously, i could have done something worse. she has to understand that.

esok mok bli roti rah mita gk. cyes nyaman. rasa nk keja lak bakery ndah lak. hee~

"Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?"

Keane - Is It Any Wonder

Is it any wonder I'm tired?

Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?

Is it any wonder I don't know what's right?

Oh, these days, after all the misery made,

Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?

Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

lagu yg paling knk ngan ku time tk. even tho now tgh layan Cinta Dalam Hati. used to suka lagu ya a lot. lirik yg sgt....hit home. even now maseh suka actually, sbab lirik ya pun maseh hit home jwak. reminds me to mr doc very much; the song. i seriously wanna talk to him about how messed up my life is now and he can be all oprah-ish and cheer me up like always.

gmbr tk remind ku ngan nino. tdah nya jadi outcast; sorang2 mkn bamboo. xpa. at least x pyh share bh.

talking about nino, mlm tk nk mbak nya tdo awal. malam tk mek volunteer knk tinggal sorang2 ngan nino, syg. malas nk ngecik ati dkpn, and mujok dkpn gk psya. kepak.

"Say if my wish could come true..."

Akinishi Jin - Eternal

recently tears gland ku active balit. mlm tdk, well, ku nangis, for some reason. time ya tgh checking out what's up with my lun's man Jin tk jwak. and dgr this Eternal as well.

even tho i'm still butthurt with the whole Jin-leave-KAT-TUN stuffs, i still like him a lot. i mean, cdak lain, Ryo included, mainly making moneys. cdak x kisah what kind of music they're asked to sing, as long as cdak dapat polah and dapat duit, ok la ya. but Jin, he goes all the way nk molah pa yg nya maok. selfishly stubborn would be perfect to describe him but then, it's not like I am not, right? haha.

Eternal is one of the most beautiful songs I ever heard. maybe sbab Jin ng arguably the best singer in Johnny's. and lyrics are nice jwak.

posting the lyrics translation here. it is said that Jin wrote the it for a friend's wedding. how very the nice.

to my precious ones; especially you. aok, ktk yg polah mek nangis. ingat, kmk syg ktk; org lain syg ktk jwak, and you deserve every bit of us. hope you're okay now.

Akanishi Jin - Eternal

To like and dislike
It is not something that can be conveyed easily with words
Once a year, on this special day
Time and again, forever, closest to you

Your smile, and the very same gestures
Every single one of them are all my treasure

You're living with a smile
Just for that alone
It makes me so happy, warm and I feel that I could be gentle
You lights up my future

The warmth my mum gave me
It is wrapped in a large form of love
I'll take all of that and walk on
Showered by our many friend's gentleness
We messed up and fought...
But we learnt the happiness of understanding each other

Uncountable amount of memories
From this day on, let's create more of them

Say for example should I be borned on this world again
We will each meet again like this
And I will love you again like this

There are barriers we have to overcome
But no matter what happens
I'll be right next to you

Say if my wish could come true...
Would someone please cast magic on you so that
No tears of saddness would ever have to fall down your face

I'll live on together with you
With a beautiful smile and my head held high
I'll hold your hand, and we'll walk side by side
Such a future awaits us
Thank you for today

the song will be out on March 2nd (dye's birthday! =___=), his first solo single. debut in America on July 4th; his birthday and America's Independent Day. in recent interview, he admitted on not having a lover for 2-3 years (while yapping on his iPad), but he has someone he likes. when asked whether the person is a Japanese, he responded "no comment" cutely.

ookay. now. Bio. ugh.

"This could be the end of everything; so why don't we go, somewhere only we know?"

Keane - Somewhere Only We Know

ever heard of secret base? kdak nk dalam game Pokemon ya eh. bez na mun da tmpt gya oh. tempat rahsia yg kta or org tertentu jak tauk. somewhere only we know.

it's only February 18 but it has been a tiring year already. i think not only to me. x tauk la org lain gney pi quite obvious jwak lam klas ku ya. health problems, and everything. perhaps it's the high expectation. maybe bukan dri parents ka teachers ka or anyone else, pi dri dirik mekorg pun. even kta x sdar actually yg kta nkah harapan yg sky-high tinggi ngan dirikpun. but then, it's not necessarily a bad thing. i mean, yala, mekorg 5E tek nk? pndey, serious, exam-oriented tek nk?

no offence intended, really. wait. maybe there is. depend la.

contoh is, say, Sal. Sal is always composed. even when klas dah abis, or belum start, nya sure ngan buku yg wide open. bak kata nya few years back, nya mok ngabis suma rah skul, lak rah umah nya pat men game. benda ya ng dh jadi common in almost four years ku jadi classmate nya. so when tadik ku nangga nya rah meja cikgu, head on the table, looking spaced out, it surprised me. mcm...x pernah nangga.

she denied me, tho. maybe mostly on makan rah school la coz cgek gk, nya jarang makan rah school. haha. part ya mek guro jak Sal, pernah mek nangga ktk mkn. mena2. haha.

as for me, there's no denying ng ku tired. dh biasa laid back, go with the flow jak. PMR pun gya. pi SPM ng sah xpat. go with the flow, and i'll flunk. nk jadi pa mun flunk? mun dh sure dpt jdi doc wifey tek xpa la jwak.

i'm tired, really. kdg2 jadi emotionally unstable. tdah ngan org yg salu jadi mangsa 'one-word-text' mun ku masok mood ya. tdah ngan ku mpun jwak coz bla masok mood ya, cure nya is sleep, so kerja ng alu x diagak. bkn hal study jak la. life in general.

the 'somewhere only we know'; there are times when i really want it to end. i think both of us had tried, tho. failed each time, and we are too tired to try again that we just go with the flow. well. what's the end. anyway?

crap. dh ngereco dh ku. haha. btw. lagu fave tk; Keane's Somewhere Only We Know. bez. lyrics nice. and and, rya jumpa tk rah kdey bku.

jumpa ya trus jak ambik gmbr and send to him. hee~ i want~ title nice, cover kck; the content couldn't be that bad nk? haha. lak la bli. haven't bought anything for myself recently.

talk about things bought for myself, ney tuju bracelet RYOANNE ya oh. syg bis ku ngan bnda ya eh. where where~

"If I had it all, life would be so boring."

YUI - Simply White

kita xkan dpt suma yg ktk mok lam dunia tk.

what an intro. haha.

tapi mena la nk oh? mun kta dh dpt suma, then pake apa idup gk.

"kta x leh jadi perfectionist eh.... ktk ingat dunia tk berpusin k ktk sorang?...in case ktk x tauk, dunia tk bkn consists of ktk duak awg jak"

things yg ku salu bisin ngan dye. haha. but well. mun nk kira degree of selfishness, ng aku pun tinggi gk dri anyone i know la. proof would be the one i am hugging right now; nino. haha.

jap. what is this entry supposed to be about tek ah? haha.

aok. things yg kta maok. things yg kta perlu. they are not usually the same. but then, they are not necessarily different jwak nk? that's how i see it, anyway.

"suma ktk maok ktk dapat bh. coba ktk biasa gk idup gya, dh 17 taun dh eh."

mizi said to me once. and what i wanted to say is "i wish." haha. pa yg nya pdh ya partly true, but then x suma. most of them aku dpt, yes. and others i don't. perhaps what i don't get is what i don't need. i mean, well, He loves me after all, right?

xpat imagine mun aku actually kaya; how spoiled i would turn out. even now, even when i wasn't born with silver (or any kind of) spoon in my mouth, i always end up wanting things to be done in my way. i think that's bad enough.

anyway, before ku ngereco pnjg2 hal pa ntah (ngrepak, bak kata org ya tek.) - HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NANA~ haha. to be honest ku xingat b'day nya. banyak glak bnda lam mind duak tiga menjak tk. x teringat b'day org ndah. p sa nya nana x kisah pun ku x ingat ka x. komfom suk ati nya di wish izzul tek. izzul, izzul.... maok jwak nya wish tek. haha.

sumpah ku jeles. haha. kidding. or not. haha.

and...i think i need a F5 button in my life. for many various reasons.